Everyone wants to be seen. Not the version of the self set by parameters of the world or a country or hashtags — the best version, the most innocent, authentic, and true. It’s a gift to have relationships that give you that.
I’m blessed that I’ve been friends with someone who’s seen me like that since 6th grade. @caitlinraee not only sees the me I want to see, she always ALWAYS encourages me to shine that way. I never have to sensor myself or withhold thoughts or feelings with her — I can talk to her about anything, including race. For example, when white people interact with me in ways that make me uncomfortable (i.e. when strangers touch my hair), she NEVER questions me, and not only listens, but truly engages and seeks to understand. It takes a special person to be able to do that for someone whose experience differs from their own, especially in American culture. It’s one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever received in this life, having her as a best friend.
She took these photos minutes after learning about #portraitmode, and like the genius angel she is, the result is this, photos that are among the best and truest representations of the me I want to be. Thank you Caitlin Rae for loving me, making time for me, making me laugh so hard it hurts, and seeing me. You always help me remember to be me, and it’s a tremendous blessing.
Thank you. ❤️
Sedona is a sacred place — it was before it was called the United States. This time I went for a fun getaway, but deep down, I was hoping for something else — answers, healing, magical energy to give me more direction in 2020.
A man playing a flute gave out heart shaped rocks and told us to remember that we are unconditional love — he wished me love and magic. Those are the things I want in life more than anything else, but I had to ask myself, is that what I give?
I didn’t have a lightning bolt moment — just the magic that happens when one being offers another a reminder of who we are. I’m still lost, I’m still searching, but I’m thankful for the reminder of where I come from and where I’m going. Here’s to self-reflection, hopefully it leads to greater vision. #2020
